Self: Fighting to be heard

How many voices are in your head all trying to be heard, each their own agenda?  To get the last word,  to make their point?  If you’re like me … there are several that have to be reined in on a regular basis and silenced more often than we would like to admit what comes to mind to say.  This weekend I attended Women of Faith conference and laughed when a couple of my favorite Bible Teachers shared the same sentiments …. there is a war in minds on a daily basis and a fight for our filter to do it’s job.  Sometimes it doesn’t.  Sometimes we have to eat those words we said and it’s never very fun. 

Here’s a few of the fights I have, maybe you can relate …

– Insecure vs Self Assured … on any given day these two fight like cats and dogs and are relentless all day long.  Some days one wins, and the other gives in to defeat.  It’s part of being a girl.  More than that, it is just part of being human.  Some days we wake up and are ready to conquer the world, feeling self assured and knowing we are empowered for whatever comes our way.  Some days before our feet hit the floor, we give in to insecurity and it follows us talking us down all day long. 

– Where you are vs. where you thought you’d be …. I never really had an idea on the  “10 Years from Now” assignment in High School of where I would be, but honestly I never thought it would be where I am.  That said I can honestly say I am content where I am.  But, that  doesn’t mean my heart and head haven’t questioned more times than I want to admit “why not?”, “why me?”, “when?”, “how?” and on and on including more “what if” scenarios than blogger has word space available. 

– Skinny days vs. Not … I know this is a daily struggle for women, but it is for men too.  One day you own your shape and size and no airbrushed magazine cover stares back at you with how you should change your body and within 3 minutes you can immediately write a list longer than a child’s Christmas list of all the things you would change if given the chance. Don’t be fooled by the one you think “has the perfect body” … she’s fighting the same conversations you are. 

-Gentle advice vs. the real opinion … if given the right platform, it’s finally our time to make our point and make it loud, proving our expert-ness in said subject.  But, really our gentle gracious self has been shut down and we are not proud after that moment.  Especially if we have to eat those words. 

I should stop here before I get all these voices riled up and 8 is enough in my head!!

The truth is our mind is a daily battlefield.  The fight is simple, the filter shouldn’t always be at the outward expression and who’s going to be heard for the day.  The filter starts with what goes in.  Who do you believe validates who you are?  Only ONE is worth your time. He has created YOU to be unique, flawless, perfect, individual, and for your purpose.  For no one else’s. 

Consider what you watch, read and most importanly allow yourself to believe … the lies have to be filtered before allow them in to take residence in the mind. Calm the voices, cling to the truth.  BeYOUtiful and let yourself shine.  You were created for exactly this.  Your story.  Your mistakes.  Your victories.  They are yours, no one can take them from you and grace is new every day to win the battle for your mind to believe who you were created to be.  Go boldly. 

From the inside of a pair of skinny jeans that hardly fit over my knees … a gentle reminder.


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